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[HAWKCLAW]

Hawkkit - Hawkpaw - Hawkclaw

Male - 43 Moons - Riverclan - Deputy
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Family/Mentors

Father - Timberstep - Deceased
Mother - Nighttail - Deceased
Brother - Thistleheart - Riverclan Warrior
Sister - Crowpaw - Deceased

Mentor (Past) - Shadowleaf - Riverclan Queen
Mentor (Past) - Willowstar - Riverclan Clan Leader

Romance

Friends

Ivysong - Riverclan Medicine Cat

Allies

Rivals

Enemies

Willowstar - Riverclan Clan Leader
Whitefoot - Riverclan Warrior
Ashtail - Riverclan Warrior

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Appearance

At first glance the Riverclan deputy can be rather intimidating, and for good reason. Hawkclaw is a large and muscular warrior, towering over many of the other cats around him and displaying a well honed physique. And it’s not simply extra bulk that makes him so big; the warrior is a powerful cat, and has great strength behind his paws and high endurance, both traits that allowed him to win the Games moons ago. That coupled with skills and techniques of battle, honed with moons of practice, have made him a somewhat reputed and feared warrior on the battlefield, and the deputy of Riverclan is certainly not an opponent to take lightly. The majority of Hawkclaws body is covered in light brown, almost tan fur, which is of an average, medium length and sleek in appearance, to help ward off the water the cats of Riverclan are accustom to being in. The tom’s neck and underbelly are covered in white fur, as well as his paws and the tip of his tail. Being a tabby, the cats’ fur is covered in a pattern of black stripes of varying size and lengths, running across the entirety of his body, save for the areas coated in white. Hawkclaws mouth is highlighted by a patch of white fur, as well as his eyes, which are surrounded by a ring of lighter fur, his facial features accented by his tabby stripes. His ears are long in length and pointed, and his eyes are a faded olive green in color, holding small flecks of gold. Hawkclaws tail is long and covered in short tan fur, save for the tip as previously mentioned. Having seen his fair share of brawls and scuffles, the deputy’s body is covered in numerous battle scars, but prominently he has a chunk torn from his left ear, a result of a fight with his brother, and a rather large scar down his right flank, gained during the Games.

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Personality

[/li][li] Fiercely Loyal: Hawkclaw is loyal to Riverclan, but he doesn’t have just normal, passive loyalty. This cat hunts, fights, breathes, and lives for Riverclan. The deputy takes his place and responsibility in the clan seriously, and is completely devote to helping his fellow clan mates survive and prosper in any way he can. Unfortunately, his loyalty doesn’t end even at simply being stalwart with his dedication to clan life; because of his prideful and arrogant nature Hawkclaw also sees Riverclan as the greatest clan of the four, and due to this has an inherent right to everything that the other three clans might want. To him its Riverclan first, everything else second, and by second he essentially means not deserving of anything more than base recognition. Hawkclaw is not a cat to hesitate to uplift his own clan or defend its name, and due to his rather fiery attitude, is also not one to let another cat disrespect or mock his clan without putting the cats’ claws to the test. This also means that Hawkclaw has large expectations about Riverclan standards, and can be particularly harsh at times when dealing with problems that may arise within the clan.

[/li][li] Impulsive/Headstrong: Hawkclaw isn’t exactly what you might consider a lesser intelligent cat, but what is true is that the warrior tends to use his body rather than his brain when situations arise. He’s impulsive to be blunt about it, to the Riverclan deputy it’s usually act first and think later. This isn’t to say that it’s a miracle he hasn’t died yet, he’s not suicidal, but the tom can perhaps make the wrong decision at times, basing judgment more on emotion than wisdom. Hawkclaw’s first and foremost goal is to protect his clan, and if this is achieved, nothing else matters. Its passion that motives Hawkclaw, he thinks with his heart, and while this might be admirable, it can lead him to be somewhat cruel or harsh at times, acting on what he feels rather than what might be moral or rational. He’s also rather headstrong when it comes to such things as skirmishes and battles, charging in even when the odds are stacked against him, and not always willing to seek an alternative to that which he desires.

[/li][li] Impatient: Hawkclaw isn’t your cold calculating villain or your happy go lucky flower frolicker, if anything the cat is a little bit of a hothead. Because of the pride he holds in both himself and his clan, and the weight on which he places that which he values, the deputy can be quick to anger, lashing out at others either through his tongue, or even in some cases, his claws and teeth. He’s not destructive per say, he isn’t going to kill a cat simply for disobedience, but he’s not one to have his patience tried by some rogue apprentice disobeying him or some other clan cat spitting on Riverclan’s name. He’ll get angry, and because of his stubbornness, he’ll hold a grudge, and then it’s not particularly easy to get Hawkclaw to like you again.

[/li][li] Fierce/Blunt: Going along with his temper, Hawkclaw can be rather blunt to those that enrage him, or really, those that he simply doesn’t like. If he thinks an apprentice is being lazy, a warrior being a coward, or an elder talking nonsense when he isn’t supposed to, the tom is one to let them know up front, and not always in the nicest of ways. Hawkclaw also has no qualms about letting his feelings of the other clans be known, opinions that aren’t exactly graceful in the realm of diplomatic intent. His fierceness however doesn’t show so much in conversation as it does in battle. Hawkclaw is a warrior through and through, and his size is only testimony to his willingness to fight. The deputy is a fierce fighter and is not one to easily give up a fight, and will fight his heart and soul for his clan and clan mates. Hawkclaw does not quail at the sight of blood and is home as much in the fray as he is back in the warriors den. In fact, going along with his headstrong nature, Hawkclaw might take fighting a bit too far as an option sometimes, preferring action over negotiation or diplomacy, particularly in clan to clan disagreements.

[/li][li] Stubborn/Dedicated: As if being headstrong was bad enough, Hawkclaw is stubborn, and that’s almost an understatement. When Hawkclaw places his mind on something or is convinced of the truth of some fact, he’ll defend it fiercely, and won’t change his ways or his actions easily. Due to his pride he’s not one to admit his mistakes, and will stubbornly refuse any follies of his, as well as that of his clan. His stubbornness also extends to the battlefield, retreat is really not an option for Hawkclaw, and he’ll reluctantly if ever concede to withdrawing or allowing another clan victory in any way. The deputy is also stubborn with his decisions, as before with ideas, one’s he makes them, he sticks with them. This does bring rise to a perhaps good trait that the tom holds above all this, in that he’s highly dedicated to that which he values, such as Riverclan. Hawkclaw is not a cat to give up on something that he’s said or promises that he’s made, once he sets out to do something, it’ll either be done or its impossible to do, at least by his standards

[/li][li] Courageous: It’s not just his physical abilities that allow Hawkclaw to be a warrior, but the cat is also courageous in the face of danger. The deputy is not one to cower and quake at the coming of an enemy or whenever a threat comes to bear down upon the clan. He’s motivated by his desire to protect Riverclan and his own pride, and the tabby rarely if ever steps down from a challenge or fight, and won’t be brought into a whimpering pile of fur at the slightest sight of blood or battle. He’ll face whatever challenges Starclan decides to bring in front of him and attempt to conquer them as best as he can. His courageousness can also lead to the foolish headstrongness of his as mentioned before, because of his usual lack of fear he can find himself in a few tight spots, charging against overwhelming odds without a thought to his own safety or personal well being.

[/li][li] Honorable: Although he has a temper, and Hawkclaw can be motivated to do things that may seem unnecessarily cruel or extreme, this doesn’t mean that the deputy is a horrible cat willing to kill others at ease. No, Hawkclaw is actually a rather honorable cat. He follows the warrior code fully; even when he fights he does so to prove his strength and to protect the clan he loves, not for the taste of blood or to sate some appetite of death. He’s also not one to lie or cheat his way into or out of situations, part of the reason why he can be so blunt of speech, but it’s simply not in his creed to use trickery to garner gains for himself. He respects the ways of the clans and the ways of their ancestors, and even if he can be confrontational with the other clans and holds little respect for them, he does respect their place within the forest, even if he does believe them to be far inferior to Riverclan. Most of the time Hawkclaw does have a honor code, but while exceptions do exist due to his ambition, such cases aren’t particularly common, and generally the deputy is a cat who might be go head to head with you, but won’t be conniving to bring you down from behind your back.

[/li][li] Prideful/Arrogant: If there was one defining trait that one could place on Hawkclaw, his pride would certainly come up. As mentioned previously, the Riverclan deputy has a lot of pride in his clan, his clan is not only everything that he believes in, his clan is the greatest thing that ever decided to live around the lake and probably the best thing that will ever decide to make its home where the greatest clan that ever lived once stood. Yeah, you get the point. But his pride also extends to himself. Hawkclaw is a very prideful creature, not only believing highly in his own abilities and prowess as deputy and clan cat, but he takes high precedence over such things as reputation and name, though these extend more towards his clan than himself. What does affect Hawkclaw is that the tom doesn’t take kindly to anything or anyone that threatens to insult him or somehow claim him to be weak or a coward, or in any way general make him feel as if he wasn’t good enough, something that plays particularly in with his ambition. Because Hawkclaw continually attempts to prove himself as the best, and along with his temper, insults to his name and reputation are sure fire ways to garner his hate towards you, and you can quickly make an enemy of the deputy if you hurt his pride. The cat’s pride also gives way to arrogance however. There’s no doubt that Hawkclaw is a fine warrior, he’s proved it in the past, and he did win the Games as an apprentice. But the tom takes it to the next level, he’s the best at whatever he does, and he’ll prove it to anyone who thinks otherwise. What more, it can lead him to overestimate his abilities, or the abilities of his clan, relying on his perceived gauge of their strength, when reality might be different. Hawkclaw’s arrogance also leads him to act superior to cats of other clans, and even to cats of his own clan, though to a lesser extent. Overall it’s simply a defining point in his life, Hawkclaw wants to prove himself, and in his eyes the only way to do this is be better than anyone else.

[/li][li] Caring: As temperamental and harsh as Hawkclaw can be, and as arrogant and prideful as he may come off to others, he does have a caring and kind side to him. Granted, it’s usually hidden beneath a great deal of the other “qualities” he displays, but it is something that the deputy does hold. For instance, and perhaps the greatest example, is how much he cares for Riverclan and the cats that call the clan theirs. If you’re a Riverclan apprentice he’ll work you to the tail, if you’re a warrior he’ll expect you to show courage and bravery in front of any danger, and if you’re a kit he’ll be looking to you to carry on the proud Riverclan tradition into the future, but if you become injured or hurt, frightened or fearful, Hawkclaw will be genuinely concerned. Now, don’t go overboard here, he’s not the dotty motherly kind, his type of concern is growling at you to rest in the den for being such a worthless sack of fur. But he’ll mean well, and be truly worried about your well being until a recovery is made. This extends especially to kits and apprentices, Hawkclaw having a particular soft spot for the younger cats of his clan, and not being overly harsh to them, showing greater lenience to a rebellious kit than he would a cowardly warrior. But overall Hawkclaw does have a heart, as hard as that might be to believe sometimes, but he does care for the well being and overall health of those cats which he takes pride in, the cats of Riverclan.

[/li][li] Ambitious: If pride and arrogance are some traits that define Hawkclaw, than ambition has been his driving force for the 43 moons of his life. Since he was a kit, Hawkclaw has been motivated by an intense inner desire to meet and exceed the expectations of others, to not appear weak or timid and prove himself as worthy of others acceptance and of being a Riverclan warrior. This sort of attitude was brought about primarily by his father Timberstep, a figure that in many ways helped create who the deputy is now. Unfortunately, his ambition has not simply been what’s made the tom move forward in life, it’s also created conflict and problems as well, most notably with his brother Thistleheart. Because Hawkclaw was raised with the full belief that if he wasn’t the best and if he didn’t strive to be the best than he wasn’t worth the fur on his back, the cat not only developed the arrogance and pride that now permeates much of what he did, but he’s created an atmosphere where failure of any kind is not tolerable, not only by others, but by Hawkclaw himself. He’s no one without his reputation and ability, and it’s this overwhelming desire to quench this thirst, or rather, this need, that it’s what controls the tabby’s every action. In this way Hawkclaw’s ambition isn’t ill in intent, he’s not scheming to destroy his clan or even take the position of clan leader, (as tempting as it might be with Willowstar), through blood, he fully expects to achieve this one day, but his ambition is more simply disproving the lifelong doubts he’s had about himself, doubts instilled by his father and his own self. This isn’t to say that his ambition and desire to prove haven’t controlled him in the past. Particularly in the Games Hawkclaw has done actions that aren’t normal for him, things that aren’t exactly “honorable” or good, and he’s done them because as stated before, failure was not an option. In this way Hawkclaw’s ambition to prove can overwhelm him, and perhaps it may even be considered an inner turmoil that the cat posses, one which could be exploited or unleashed with less than good results.

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[LILYPAW]

Lilykit - Lilypaw

Female - 6 Moons - Windclan - Apprentice
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Family/Mentors

Father - Rookfeather - Windclan Warrior
Mother - Gingerfur - Windclan Queen
Brother - Sootpaw - Windclan Apprentice

Mentor (Current)- Sunshine - Windclan Warrior

Romance

Friends

Duskfoot - Windclan Warrior
Foxpaw - Windclan Apprentice

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Appearance

Lilypaw is not the biggest apprentice in Windclan; although not what one might consider particularly puny, the she-cat is lithe and slender in appearance, having a very narrow body. Reflecting this, the apprentice is not a very strong cat or a very hardy one; she’s not about to face off a roving band of rogues on her own or run around the lake twenty times. What Lilypaw does have going for her though is that the she-cat is agile and fast, her movements are graceful like her body and she can out move many of the other bulkier or stronger apprentices with her acrobatic stunts and maneuvers. Lilypaw is a beautiful calico she-cat, meaning that her body is covered in white fur that is short in length, but with her coat also holding large intermingling patches of black and ginger fur spread over her figure. Lilypaw has bright olive colored eyes, ringed on the outside with a hint of amber, and with each eye surrounded by a patch of colored fur, one black and the other ginger. The apprentice has pointed ears of a moderate length and a long tail extending from her body. Being still young and only an apprentice, Lilypaw has no scars or wounds covering her figure or any permanent injuries.

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Personality

[/li][li] Kind/Caring: Ask about Lilypaw and one of the things you may hear is how she’s just the sweetest little cat you’ve ever met. Alright, that might be a bit of an exaggeration, but it’s true that the apprentice holds herself with a very gentle and kind demeanor most of the time, and is not one to lapse into anger or be cruel to another. She treats others with respect and holds a very pleasant air around her. Things like jealousy, hatred, pride, or arrogance; they just aren’t traits she shows, at least on a superficial level. Not only is Lilypaw generally kind to those she meets, she’s very caring to others, genuinely and highly concerned whenever another cat of her clan, or really any cat in general, is injured or in some form of pain, whether physical or emotional. The she-cat likes almost nothing more in the world than to see her friends and clan mates healthy and happy, and whenever a threat looms or a tragic event has struck, she’s very empathetic to those affected, and will try to comfort whomever it is that she feels needs some help.

[/li][li] Shy/Quiet: Although kind and gentle to all those she meets, and almost never showing any scorn or malice towards another, it’s actually meeting Lilypaw that’s usually the problem. The she-cat is very shy, from a young age she was simply never one for exploring or adventuring around with the other kits and cats of Windclan, and this includes social matters. She’s not particularly opposed to any sort of encounter with another, granted they’re pleasant in intent, but it’s actually getting to such a situation that she has problems with. Because of her nervous nature Lilypaw is always worrying about how and if she’ll seem annoying or a burden or if the other cat simply doesn’t want to talk to her, and thus tends to shy away from any sort of conversation with another. Getting orders from her mentor or listening to the clan leader is one thing, but actually conversing with a stranger or even a cat in her clan that usually doesn’t interact with her, Lilypaw will likely be a stammering mess of fur. And since she’s so shy, Lilypaw is also a rather quiet apprentice, keeping to herself mostly whenever she’s within a large group of cats. While other apprentices might be more vocal about their opinions on other clans or fighting or situations that arise within their territory, Lilypaw won’t be, voicing her opinion only with great reluctance if prompted to do so, but never speaking out for herself. She’ll be there physically, but it can be sometimes easy to forget that Lilypaw is even with you.

[/li][li] Timid: As mentioned before, Lilypaw was never one to go romping around the clan or pretend to fight enemy clan cats; she has a very timid nature. For one, as her shyness might suggest, she lacks a great deal of confidence in her own abilities or appearance, she’s constantly worrying about how other might perceive her and always thinks she’s not meeting the expectations of the other cats of Windclan. While other apprentices view themselves as growing to be the greatest warriors the clan has ever seen, Lilypaw considers herself nothing short of a failure; at least this is how she believes everyone else generally views her. Along with her lack of confidence is a lack of courage. Lilypaw isn’t one to take the initiative with things, worried about her potential of failure, but more so this lack of courage applies to being what she’s training to be, a warrior. The prospect of being in battle, of seeing claws and teeth and the crimson of blood, smelling death and hearing the bloodcurdling screech of fighting cats, it terrifies her to say the least. The she-cat is easily frightened, scared of her own shadow at times it seems, and even thinking about having to one day protect her clan from some danger brings ice into her veins.

[/li][li] Pacifist: If her fear of any sort of battle or fight, even the imaginative ones, isn’t enough of a hint, than it goes without saying that Lilypaw is a pacifist. With her fear of having to one day fight, its no wonder she’s opposed to any sort of conflict or brawl, scampering away from the play fights of kits and apprentices, and looking on in horror at the aftermaths of battles fought by her clan. But it’s not just cowardice that makes Lilypaw a pacifist; as stated before and along with some of her other traits, the Windclan apprentice is a very caring individual, sharing great empathy with others, even those outside her clan. Because of this, the calico she-cat could scarcely even imagine hurting another, let alone potentially having to kill a cat, even if it was to defend her home or clan. She simply doesn’t see fighting as a good option for solving a crisis or conflict, and she prefers other alternatives, or rather, watching her clan pursue other alternatives. Perhaps she’s a little unique in this way among other clan cats, but certainly she doesn’t see much more use in her claws and teeth than hunting and biting the ticks from elders, dreading the thought of ever having to hurt another with them.

[/li][li] Supportive: Going along with her caring nature, to those cats she gets passed her shyness with and can call her friend, Lilypaw is very supportive to them and will back up those she cares for with earnest and devotion. She may not always agree with those around her, particularly with her views on fights and her generally more calm and timid mind, but if her friend is dead set on going about their business, she’ll go with them. Her friends are very special to Lilypaw, she couldn’t imagine a life without them, and thus she’s the type of cat that would go to the end of the world for you and back again, just because she cares that much for the well being, safety, and happiness of others. If you can get to know Lilypaw, no easy task given the she-cats nervousness at meeting others, then you won’t find just a friend in her, you’ll find a stalwart ally and a companion that has your back whenever you need it, and while her support might not always be the most intimidating or remarkable thing, she’ll support you no matter the cost or path. Because, honestly, to Lilypaw the well being and happiness of others are more important than her own self, and her full devotion to this sort of mindset is easily noticeable.

[/li][li] Nervous: As her shyness and timid nature might suggest, Lilypaw can be very nervous and doting. Because of her lack of confidence, a situation is almost always assumed by the Windclan apprentice to be the worst it could possibly be. Column of smoke in the distance? The entire forest must be on fire and all possible exits are probably blocked by a swirling inferno. Snap of a twig in the distance? Better high tail it out of there before that enemy patrol attacks. A small scratch on her hind leg? Must have been from a snake, probably carrying twelve kinds of poisons and likely spelling her instant doom, which is unless she’s immediately taken to the medicine cat. You probably get the picture. Lilypaw is just the kind of cat that always worries about every possible situation, and can be very skittish and jumpy when things are getting out of hand. She’ll assume and freak out at the slightest of bothers or dangers, and can sometimes overreact to what really is a harmless situation. This tends to occur more when its someone she cares for that’s being affected by something, or at least she makes it more verbal, but it’s certainly true that she also gets nervous about what happens to her, and can sometimes be a little bit of a drama queen.

[/li][li] Optimistic: Although she is skittish and very nervous and over reacting with situations, that doesn’t mean in the long run that Lilypaw continually ponders when her existence and the world as a whole are going to end. Really, the apprentice can be a very optimistic cat, and tends to hold a very cheerful opinion of life. If the sun is bright and shining, the grass green and flowing, and the air warm and clear, she’ll be happy, and it can be very hard to dash Lilypaw’s hopes and happiness. It’s true that come any disturbance the she-cat will go off on some tangent or freak out over nothing, but it’s not like her view of the world is plummeting. Rather, she’s simply concerned about the well being of those around her, and once things have settled down again, or even during a situation, she’ll keep a light if somewhat rapid heart. Things will turn out well in the end, they have to; that’s the kind of thought process that the Windclan apprentice holds. In fact, Lilypaw can sometimes hold a somewhat naive optimism, underestimating how dire a situation might be. She’ll worry about it, but she might not exactly understand just what could occur, and instead might simply look at the crisis as bad, but something that in due time will clear itself, when this may not be the case. Either way, good or bad, Lilypaw is a very lighthearted cat, and lives day to day with easy happiness and hopes that are not easily crushed by the trials of the world around her and the life of a clan cat.

[/li][li] Naive: As her optimistic nature suggests, Lilypaw can be a rather naive cat at times. She’s not what you might call ignorant to the world or what’s in it, she just doesn’t always understand the gravity of things, or exactly how a situation is developing or proceeding. For example, with her pacifist mindset, if an enemy clan is about to attack Windclan territory, she still might insist that they simply go and talk to the angered enemy clan and sort things out through words and diplomacy rather than claws and war. Admirable perhaps, but not exactly practical, and it’s this kind of subtle naivity that Lilypaw has. She views life with a wondrous eye, remarking at the beauty and goodness it has, but completely blind to the evil and foulness that lurks just around every corner. Her naivety in this way can be particularly true when she’s dealing with another cat. Because of her caring nature of all cats, she can subconsciously ignore, not exactly on purpose, the bad qualities a cat might display; she simply doesn’t want to believe that any cat could be bad and hold malice or ill will towards another. Mockery is one thing, but Lilypaw could never even dream of a clan cat murdering a fellow or a kit being killed for vengeance, such things, although they do happen, are simply nightmares and kit stories to Lilypaw, and she has a hard time believing that cats can hold anything resembling evil, making her particularly susceptible to deceit and lies, tending to believe that which is said over what might be more apparent to others, but to which she happily ignores out of naivety.

[/li][li] Trusting: As was mentioned with her naivety, Lilypaw is a very trusting cat. Even to those she initially meets, she will completely assume that you are a good intentioned cat and that you mean her well, even if the cat in question has displayed some less than pleasant qualities in the past. What more, once the status of stranger is cast aside and she becomes acquaintances or particularly friends with you, Lilypaw is very free with what she discloses to you, be it personal opinions or clan secrets. She simply believes in honesty and practices it herself, and while this is good for her, it’s a false assumption many a time when applied to other cats that she meets. Lilypaw is also very gullible, if she’s informed that her clan is in dire danger from dogs or that Starclan has prophesized the demise of every clan cat around the lake, she’ll probably believe you if she holds even some amount of affection towards the cat in question. In terms of jokes this can make Lilypaw rather susceptible to the tricks of others, and she can get picked on sometimes, though usually in good faith. However, this also means that Lilypaw can be taken advantage of, either as a source of information, or by transferring some information onto her. She’ll confide her heart and she’ll allow you to impression her, and while this blissful honesty and trust is remarkable, it’s also dangerous, and something that so far Lilypaw has been lucky enough not to let out of hand.

[/li][li] Motherly: This trait of Lilypaws is really not hard to believe with just how much she cares for others. The apprentice displays motherly properties, doting and fretting over those that she holds affection for, and always willing to care or tend to another. This extends really to any cat, but in particular Lilypaw has a fondness for kits, typically spending time near the nursery when not busy and helping out the queens with their troublesome little balls of fur. The she-cat like many hopes to have some bundles of joy herself one day, but for now she simply treats a great deal of others cats, whether young or old, as if they were somehow related and under her care. While this makes Lilypaw particularly caring and helpful when the time dictates for such a thing, it can also make Lilypaw rather annoying to many. If she witnesses someone become injured or if she fears that they’ve been hurt, the apprentice will badger them for days about how they are doing, always wondering for their safety and well being, even if the wound in question is simply a small scratch. In this way, while Lilypaw means well, she can be overbearing to others, and to be blunt, simply a bother. But overall the she-cat is simply a figure that wants the best for everyone, and will look out for this to happen as best as she can.

[/li][li] Doubtful: The final thing about Lilypaw is how doubtful she is about her own self. Although this was previously mentioned with her lack of confidence and how she doubts the opinion others hold of her, it extends farther than that. She doubts her own abilities as an apprentice, and constantly believes that she is subpar to everyone else, the weakest and most worthless cat in the entire clan. While this doesn’t cause her to mope around, it does bring about some amount of resignation to the she-cat. In particularly, Lilypaw doubts ever becoming a warrior of Windclan, and almost questions why she tries. She’s timid and shy, lacks the courage and conviction of battle, and only wishes for everyone else to get along; with all this how could she even imagine becoming a warrior and attempting to protect and defend her clan? Really, what Lilypaw doubts and fears most is failing and watching someone get hurt because of it, or even worse, killed, simply because she can’t stand the sight of blood or any hint of violence. She still trains to be a warrior, but will question herself every step of the way, and overall just doubts what meaning her life has. What could such a weak creature possibly do for her clan? It’s a question that reverberates constantly in her head, and one in which the answer constantly eludes capture.

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